Last night I reached my breaking point.
I am three weeks from graduating and it seems like everything is going wrong. Most students are nervous about graduating but, I am dreading each an every day here.
I’ve always noticed that anxiety always comes back when my stress levels are high and they have been higher than normal lately. I am doing research papers, preparing for finals, trying to rub two nickels together to get through the week and worst of all I feel alone.
I am away from people who I know care about me and it gets hard sometimes. The thing that stresses me out the most is not knowing who to trust.
When I woke up this morning I came across this YouTube video that lifted my spirit. This young lady’s story inspired me to keep going.
If you are going through depression or anxiety I think you should watch this video because it really helped me.
When it seems as if everything is wrong, sometimes you have to remind yourself who you are. It is none of your business what people think of you but, what truly matters is what you think about yourself.
The darkest hour has a way of exposing your pain.
The darkest hour knows how to make you look him in his face. The darkest hour separates the weak from the strong because he will either make you strong or tear you apart.
I made it past the darkest hour because I’m here today and so did you. But the funny thing about the darkest hour is that when you think you’ve met him sometimes he come back stronger and with a vengeance.
When you meet him again you have to be strong. We often find ourselves caving our pain inside and taking on the world with an artificial confidence. In order to be prepared for the darkest hour we have to let go of the pain from the past because healing builds strength. When you are able to walk away from a closed door with closure then you will be equipped to face whatever is in store in the next door.
When you have a better outlook on life it’s easier to get past challenges because you know that pain comes and go. With wisdom you can approach any obstacle with a warrior mentality. The warrior mentality is the mentality that you can conquer any obstacle that comes your way.
When the darkest hour comes know that an hour is only a spec in time and you can get through it.
I know that I have not posted an article in a while but, over the past few months I have been going through a lot.
Sometimes when it seems as if the odds are against you, you may feel discouraged. I am here to tell you do not give up.
Today I may not be exactly where I want to be but, with faith I will make it. Throughout all of my obstacles I realized that the problems that I faced where not due to my circumstances but, how I allowed those circumstances to effect me.
Over the past 5 years I have been fighting anxiety and fear of the unknown but, with the help of God I am growing and moving on day by day. I struggled with allowing my past to cripple me from moving forward with my life. It was a daily routine for me to pray and hope for God to change those people that hurt me in my life. Then I realized that I needed to change myself.
I changed my prayers and ask God to give me the strength to face any obstacle that I faced with him in my heart. Although I still have bad days I have seen a major change in my life. It got worst before it got better but, it was worth it because those test helped to build my character.
To anyone who is going through whatever it is that you are going through I encourage you to keep the faith. You may make mistakes and struggle but speak words of comfort to your soul and know that you are strong. Be the change that you want to see in your life.