Have you ever sat in a room full of people and felt alone? I remain silent, as I watch people pass me by but I remain invisible. For many years I have struggled to understand why I was invisible. How could it be possible to be physically present and mentally absent at the same time? I remain silent watching my surroundings from the inside out.
Today I am here to tell you not to overlook the strength in invisibility. By mentally separating myself from the outside world, I’ve learned how to love myself. The people that use to be there to validate me were no longer there, forcing me to learn to love myself. I’ve learned to be comfortable in my own skin. It was like I met myself for the first time and I liked her. I learned to accept her for her flaws, cried with her, and had her back. Stepping out on my own was one of the best things that I could have done. It was as if God wanted me to rely on him working in me and not the world.
I embrace my invisibility and when the time is right I will be ready to be seen. When I am seen I want to be seen for who I truly am and not pieces of a puzzle that others matched together to make me what they want me to be. Invisibility shouldn’t be a lifestyle, but it is okay to take the time to mold yourself into the best version of you. If you feel alone in the mist of this phase, I encourage you to remember that God is with you and he won’t forsake you. Being alone forced me to give my problems to God and not the world.
Invisibility taught me how to be confident. I no longer depend on people to validate me and I know my worth. Embrace your invisibility and know that the power is not in the world but God in you.